true friends are hard to find

What friends are for?? People keep talking, friendship is everything in life. Everything. Eberiting (versi Ali Seman)..Setuju tak?

Sometimes in friendship we tend to blame others in times of trouble. But there are friends that just do the right things at the right moments. I have thousands of friends. Ramai sangat.

But we're so busy these days in our lives that sometimes we forget to stop and think and reflect about people in our lives.We start taking our friends for granted and people start to drift apart. But friends don't have to be the ones you hang out with all the time. Friends can be the bus driver that drives the bus you get onto in the morning rush hour. People who work in the lab, the macha at the Hakim, your fake storyteller, and even the guy next door who shares the elevator with you every now and then. They're not big friendships but they're friends that are there throughout your days to help you where you're going. They are a part of your everyday life.

So im just like, everyday day when I go to class or on the way back that I make sure myself to thank someone and make them feel special, because without them I wouldn't be able to get to where im going. They're the little parts of your life that makes a big difference.

But that's not what i used to do. I really dun have idea when it comes to think about true friends. The nature of true friends that I used to have. Is it simply that u just hang out with one of them for a month then you go out with other friend 2 weeks after that, and you just avoid her when you found she was backstabbing you padahal for no reasons u think she did that. OK ayat aku dah tunggang terbalik. Maknanya la kan. Situation macam ini is normal. Everyone is experiencing various kind of friendship. For good or for bad.

So does it matter when people's avoiding you? Yes mestila kan. They make you serba tak kena thinking of what have you been done that make them treat you like a used dishrag. Macam-macam came out from my mind. What should I do?

Aku nak cakap yang i have been open and honest so why things have changed? What did I do? I value our friendship but that I do not wish to be treated like this. Thats what i wanna say. I know I may not get the response but at least its better than doin nothin rite..

One of my friends ever said that open communication is the best in relationship no matter what kind it is. I need to know whats bothering you most. I need to know what was/were my mistake(s). I need to know what should I do to make you happy to have a friend like me. I need to know what you want me to be. I need to know everything that I want you to answer it by now but I know I just cant.

FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND AND WE SHOULD CONSERVE THE ONES WE HAVE, SO LET'S TALK AND GET THINGS OUT IN THE OPEN.

I may not be approaching you asking this and that, but someday I ought to 'face-to face' with you. All of you yang tak suka aku. Because I need to know ape kelemahan dalam diri aku that makes you people hates me. I've tried my best to be a good friend but i was actually failed. Im sorry to all my dear friends for my wrong deeds.

maybe aku emo sangat lately. i have my own personal problems. theres a lot i tell ya. I wish I could share with you but i know things going to be worst. Not that worst actually. It's just that there something yang tak boleh share. Maybe involving family or whatsoever. I can handle it so far dude. I don't have problem with you. So just let me know everything's inside your heart.

Jangan avoid aku that makes me really down because we don't have so much time to hang out, to mingle around. we are going to finish up our 7th semester in UiTM and everyone's going to have the internship program (aku tak dapat placement lagi woit). Kalau ade rezeki jumpa lagi, kalau tak...the end of this semester ni la our last meeting. Tak ke sedih tu. we've been thru a lot of things together so let's cherish the moment. im gonna miss u guys and i do love you all.