loser??

i'm just losing my mind....do you know how does it feel?? feel like dying.....when it comes to the end, everything's starting to change..everyone's going to show off everything...everybody's searching for the true life with true friends...someone will surely turn you down...somebody will call you the loser number 1..something will change your mind..thinking of what your life would be..

but i'm not the real loser....yet I AM not the loser...

because i'm not losing anything...but somehow i feel like i'm going to lose something...

i'm not even an attention seeker who seeks for the whole-life-happiness from others, but I AM the attention seeker who seeks for whole-life-forgiveness from whole-life-friends whose giving me whole-life-happiness...